…this time period in my life as a life lesson for moving forward, it’s simply this:

If something’s not working or not fitting, don’t force it! You may “force” something that shouldn’t be, in place of what should be! And that, is TRAGIC!

It’s like trying to stuff your toes in a shoe 2 sizes too small. You can force it, but why when you can just go get a shoe that was made for you, …your shoe, your size.

By forcing relationship, forcing smiles, forcing prediction, I unknowingly forced myself into a reality not my own. An unhappy version of me that bended, ever so gracefully, to the March of everyone else’s beat, but my own.

I know that now.

My future looks great. It’s emptied of the political wishy-wash of past trauma. It’s emptied of people only seeking selfish gain. It’s emptied of life distractions and time “sucks”.

It’s full of unexpected blessings. It’s full of genuine laughter. Time well spent, jobs well done. Most of all, it involves me not trying to fit my size 10’s in someone else’s size 8.